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The Day We Broke God’s Heart

Like a proud parent watching their son and daughter play in a local little league, God felt helpless as Eve dropped the ball and Adam picked dandelions as the devil traded an apple for sole authority over the earth in Genesis 3.  If that wasn’t bad enough, the first naturally born child allowed jealousy to convince him to murder his younger brother in chapter 4.  The last straw occurs in Genesis 6:5 as mankind’s heart and mind turned toward every possible evil inclination.  This was the day we broke God’s heart, Genesis 6:6.

The reason I use we instead of they is based upon Romans 3:9-12.  While our stories are not recorded in the Bible, history is being repeated as most of God’s created beings are following in the footsteps of sinners.  Every morning, God is waiting for his people to acknowledge Him, Psalm 150:6.  However, busy schedules, entertainment and work causes most of us to let days slip by without saying hello in prayer or crack open the Bible to listen to God.  Instead, most human beings are led astray by humanism, naturalism and selfish desires.  Thus, by these careless actions, we are breaking God’s heart all over again!

Maybe this is why God allows individuals to endure humility, trials and defeats.  Sometimes, we need to have our own hearts broken, which makes it painfully obvious to us that we can not make it through life on our own.  In fact, this also explains why Jesus states that in order to find life you must be willing to lose it, Matthew 16:25-26.  The choices you and I make will shape our eternal futures, either toward heaven or closer to hell, Matthew 7:13-14.  Moses was right when he said choices have consequences in Deuteronomy 30:15.  May this blog challenge you to renew and or begin a personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, Romans 10:9-10.

by Jay Mankus

The First Call

Before the days of Instant Messaging, Skype and Texting, there was something socially stimulating about phone calls.  Leanne, my wife and I, spent most of our first 6 months dating over the phone.  Living 8 hours apart, distance forced us to communicate indirectly, depending on a receiver to translate the emotions and words we felt for one another.  According to Genesis 4:26, there was another type of call which happened long ago.

Separated from God, kicked out of the Garden of Eden in Genesis 3:24, the intimacy Adam and Eve shared on walks with the Lord together ceased, Genesis 3:8.  Whether it was doubt, guilt or shame, more than a generation went by without clearly connecting with the Creator of life.  After the Tree of Knowledge debacle and subsequent murder of Abel, contact had come to a standstill.  Yet, the birth of Seth, meaning “God has granted another child in Abel’s place,” served as a sign of healing.  Although, no one directly is given credit for breaking this silence,  Seth and Enosh opened the door for Noah’s special relationship with God.

For Moses, it was a whisper from inside a burning bush, Exodus 3:2-3.  Samuel experienced his first call from a voice in a dream, 1 Samuel 3:4.  The apostle Paul saw a blinding light on the road to Damascus before hearing Jesus speak, Acts 9:4-6.  As for me, my first call came during a nervous breakdown in high school, with my heart, empty and hungry for something more in life.  If you’ve not yet experienced your first call with God, you’re not alone.  May the words of Romans 10:1-17 lead you to your first call on the name of the Lord.

by Jay Mankus

The Video Game Mentality

Young people have become experts in the video game realm.  Whether its XBox, Play Station, Wi or online gaming, their hours spent learning how to play, reading books on short cuts and mastering each level of their favorite game is impressive.  Yet, if I asked these same people if they knew what the King James, Living, NAS or NIV was, most would struggle to comprehend why there are so many different versions of the Bible.  However, if I combined the 2, maybe I could reach a common ground to speak on their level, with a video game mentality.

One of my favorite passages of the Bible is Colossians 3:17 and 3:23.  The New International Version  says “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, verse 17a.”  Or with a similar concept, “whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, verse 23.”  If there was such a thing as the New Video Game Translation, this is my best interpretation of this passage.  Put all your effort and focus into each game, hitting the reset button if necessary.  Keep on trying until you reach the next level.  Don’t stop there.  Rather, keep going until you know every move, every aspect and every secret of each game.  Pass on your knowledge and move on to the next adventure, challenge and further versions.

If young people dedicated their lives to Christ like they do with video games, the next great awakening would commence.  Likewise, if prayer replaced countless hours in front of a computer, game system or television screens, endless lives could be transformed.  However, living in the world and not being lead by it is another story.  Achieving balance in life is crucial, maximizing your time with fun, pleasure and work.  When these games become the Lord of young people’s lives, behaviors often change for the worse as an addictive nature engrosses their minds.  The only way to crack this video game mentality is through the giver of life, James 1:18.  Don’t ever stop believing that young men and women can change, Romans 12:1-2.  Place your requests before the Lord so that this mindset can be broken, 2 Corinthians 4:4.

by Jay Mankus

Tattoos of the Heart

I grew up in a genre where roughly 5-10 % of my peers had a tattoo.  According to a recent Pew Research Poll, 45 million Americans now have at least one tattoo, spending $1.65 billion annually.  Anyone who visits one of the 21,000 parlors across the country should expect to pay a minimum of $45 for a small tattoo or $150 for a large one on average.  If you are noticing those around, tattoos appear almost any where from an arm, leg, neck, shoulder or face.  Sometimes I wonder, why don’t I have one.  Yet, a still small voice revealed I have an internal tattoo on my heart.

When the days of my youth wore off in college, I took the words of Joshua 1:8 to heart.  Something deep inside my soul could not run from God any longer.  Thus, I began to examine passages like Proverbs 4:23 and Deuteronomy 6:5-9.  What I found initially was painful, a crooked and deceitful heart, Jeremiah 17:9.  Despite this grave reality, there is a remedy, a spiritual ointment to cleanse your heart, Psalm 119:9-11.  Therefore, I have discovered a lighted trail, Psalm 119:105, illuminated by the Word of God.  As I read, ponder its meaning and meditate on the truth within each passage, a spiritual tattoo is forming on my heart.

In his sermon on the mount, Jesus eludes to tattoos of the heart in Matthew 6:19-24.  Although, there is a catch, the things you treasure influence your heart.  If you are not careful, tattoos of the heart can be replaced by a world full of greed, materialism and ruin.  Regardless of your external appearance or any tattoo that you display, the condition of your heart will sway you toward evil or good, Luke 6:45.  This is what Stephen saw in religious leaders during the first century, Acts 7:51-52.  Therefore, if you want a tattoo of the heart, strive to fulfill Galatians 5:7, proving yourself to be a disciple of Jesus, John 15:7-8.  Come to God’s tattoo parlor by spending time reading the Bible daily!

by Jay Mankus

Mountain Dew

As spring fades into summer, a natural phenomena occurs nearly every morning.  Appearing on blades of grass, dew  forms as exposed surfaces cool by radiating its heat through water droplets.  Those who are early risers, walk their dogs before work or play golf at day light either see footprints left by individuals or feel the cooling refreshing remnants of dew on their feet.

By the 1940’s, another dew made its presence known in America.  Now produced by the Pepsi Company, Mountain Dew was invented by Barney and Ally Hartman in Tennessee.  As the popularity of this carbonated fountain drink grew in the south, the brand and rights were purchased by Pepsi Cola in 1964.  The idea was to attach the image of cool and refreshing dew into a product which would quench the thirst of parched souls.

King David uses mountain dew in another context within Psalm 133.  Initially, David opens his song with a heart felt call to unity within the body of Christ in verse 1.  To express how sweet this feels, David paints a picture of being anointed with oil, in the tradition of the Old Testament, verse 2.  To finish his case in verse 3, David compares dew that forms on a mountain with the blessings of the Lord.  Therefore, the next time you see dew of any kind, think of all the blessings God desires to bestow upon those who call on the name of the Lord, Romans 10:11.

by Jay Mankus

The Secret to My Writing Success

Today marks Express Yourself 4 Him’s 500th blog.  What began as a hobby, something to sharpen my writing skills has developed into an internet ministry.  To celebrate this day, I am going to unveil 10 Biblical principles which have guided, inspired and motivated me to express my faith in Christ.

1. Don’t Force the Issue.  Sometimes in life, people panic like Sarai, trying to build a legacy on their own, Genesis 16:1-2.  With this in mind, I have begun each day with an open mind, ready to let Scripture and the Holy Spirit guide each word I type.  Whenever a blog doesn’t flow naturally, I stop, wait a while and either start over or go in a different direction.

2. Follow the Convictions of your Heart.  My best pieces are often conceived with a thought while sleeping at night.  If I don’t have a pad of paper nearby, I try to visualize each paragraph in my mind.  Whenever I sense a moving in my spirit, like a prompting on my heart, I get up in the middle of the night to complete these convictions before they vanish.

3. When the Spirit moves, keep Writing.  Writers block is something all writers must face and conquer.  Therefore, when God anoints me with words to write, I try to maximize these days.  It’s not uncommon to write 2-3 blogs if moved in one sitting.  As long as time permits, I try to tie all loose ends, bringing to completion each blog until I sense a peace from the Holy Spirit.

4. Find a Solitary Place.  Pastor Bill Hybels of Willow Creek recounts times he spent at a local Burger King in Michigan, sitting in a back corner booth, listening for God to guide his thoughts for future sermons.  Before I attended his church, I practiced this while in college, making for great study sessions.  Today, I use restaurants with free refills, off hours when possible, allowing me to stay awake, disciplined and focused.  This practice has led to the creation of 15 songs, hundreds of poems and a complete movie script.

5. Always Keep a Journal Nearby.  Every time I read the Bible, I write down anything that strikes a cord with my soul.  In addition, I underline powerful passages or jot down a title for potential blogs.  While watching movies or sermons on television, I am like an eager student, writing down each important point I hear.  On the days when I struggle to come up with an ideal to blog about, my journal usually triggers memories that result in new pieces.  Without this method, I would not be able to write day after day.

6. Don’t practice Isogesis.  There is a temptation at times to read too much into a passage or chapter of the Bible.  Thus, isogesis means to read things into scripture which is not supported by the actual context.  To be theologically sharp, one must examine the Bible, line by line, verse by verse and chapter by chapter, known as hermeneutics.  Though I do receive rhemas, words from the Lord, from time to time, I try not to force my beliefs into a specific passage unless I am certain of it.

7. Stay in Tune with the Holy Spirit.  When I lose my hunger and fervor for the Lord, my connection with the Holy Spirit becomes temporarily disconnected.  As a result, some blogs aren’t as powerful or well received.  However, the moment I practice Galatians 5:25, ideas flow, powerful truths come forth and writing becomes natural, like I was born to do this.

8. Use the Sabbath as Inspiration.  After my first 6 months of blogging, I realized how difficult it was to write with the same passion daily.  Therefore, I began to rely on sermons from the Trinity Broadcasting Network and my home church in Delaware to develop Express Yourself 4 Him.  By taking the first 15-30 minutes after returning from church, I have been able to stay a few days ahead, using Sunday as an outline for the rest of the week.

9. Be Discreet.  Being a teacher for a decade, has helped me maintain care, tact and prudence while blogging, 1 Peter 3:15.  It only takes one ill-timed word to create an internet firestorm.  Therefore, it is essential to review every paragraph, think about how your words will be received and adjust each line to  promote diplomacy.  The Bible will convict hearts, my responsibility is to weave truths from the word of God into each piece I write.

10. Be Original.  There are days when I throw away ideas because there are not unique enough or don’t provide an original perspective.  Current events are great aids to overcome this dilemma.  Yet, the secret to my success is striving to become like a modern day John Wesley.  When I attach theology to writing, using the Bible to answer problems in life, people are drawn to the Word of God, not me, Romans 10:17.

I want to thank all my readers for their prayers and support.  I can see 1000 in the near future.  Until then, I urge everyone to fan into flame that gift or talent God has given you, 2 Timothy 1:6.  Don’t be afraid to express yourself 4 Him, Acts 4:29!

by Jay Mankus

A Prayer for Significance

Unless you are feeling depressed, no one wants to live a meaningless life, void of any worth or value.  Something within the human soul cries out for purpose in life, hoping to make a difference in this world.  Deep inside the longest chapter of the Bible, lies a prayer for significance, Psalm 119:36-37.

This prayer begins with the heart, shifting one’s attention toward the statues written in the Bible.  Following this call, one must crucify their selfish desires and passions as the apostle Paul suggests in Galatians 5:24.  Once these habits, patterns and ways are purged from one’s mind, a new person can emerge.

The second portion of this prayer focuses on replacing the old with an entirely new perspective.  Like an addict starting over from scratch, individuals must learn what it means to invest your time in worthwhile activities.  As eyes and ears start to grasp the truths of Scripture, Psalm 119:9-11, this journey commences.  Within a Romans 12:1-2 attitude, the words of the Bible can preserve your steps, leading you to significance!

by Jay Mankus

When Joy Reemerged

On New Year’s Day, 2012, my oldest son, James and I played in a Disc Golf tournament.  After a small entry fee, James and I played well enough to earn a Frisbee, placing in our age brackets.  Before leaving, I also received money for winning a closest to the pin contest, 3 feet away.  We celebrated on the way home, going out to lunch with our 2 brand new discs.  Before last night, this was the last time I experienced joy.

This mood was broken by a chilling a phone call, a lost job and 18 months of hopelessness.  While I thought earlier in the year my luck was going to change, subtle signs from the Lord clearly revealed Chick-fil-A was not going to be in my future.  Falling apart on the inside, the prayers of dear friends and my church, has carried me across a barren desert of disappointment.

Deep in my heart, the only place I initially felt called was to coach Daniel, my younger son’s baseball team in Newark.  During my month as a Marketing Director, I was convicted by my lack of time with family.  In my absence, Coach Adrian, Coach Alex and my wife stepped in to fill the void left by me.  The team held their own, hovering above 500 before I returned.

Last night, winning the league championship culminated one of the most gratifying seasons ever as a coach.  Beside a few errors and base running blunders, every player contributed to score and or prevent runs from scoring.  Emotionally fragile at times like my last 18 months, everyone kept their composure until the final out.  The cherry on top is news earlier in the week of receiving a full time position with Amazon, with a start date set for next week.  I thank the Lord for holding me together and providing these blessings so that joy could reemerge.

by Jay Mankus

Tasting Victory

From a sports psychology perspective, individuals or teams can quickly recover from a single loss. However, when consecutive losses accumulate, its easy to forget how to win as losing develops into a mindset which is tough to snap out of. Since confidence is directly linked to success, if you don’t taste victory for an extended period of time, finding ways to lose friends, games or respect can become the norm.

As a coach of youth, middle and high school team sports for nearly 15 years, I’ve experienced the thrill of victory and agony of defeat. I’ve witnessed teams one win away from the state tournament collapse, falling apart moments before obtaining victory. Meanwhile, I’ve seen one of my teams develop a winning attitude which ultimately led to a perfect season like the Titans. Belief is often the missing ingredient that prevents individuals from reaching the champion’s podium.

From a personal point of view, winning or losing is in the eye of the beholder. Did you meet your set goals for the day? How you fulfilled the requirements of your job or position? Are you putting out 100 % effort, meeting the tasks facing you with all your heart, soul and mind? Whether you win or lose daily, the Bible talks about how you play the game called life, Colossians 3:17. Therefore, follow the commands set out in Colossians 3 so that sooner or later you will savor the taste of victory.

by Jay Mankus

A Sign of Goodness

Hindsight can change your perspective on the past, giving you a thorough understanding of the events in your life.  On the other hand, obstacles, setbacks and unforeseen trials can blur your vision for the future, resulting in bleak expectations.  When optimism is replaced by a spirit of doubt, its time to seek divine intervention.

Known for many things, King David had become empowered by his own prayer life.  This man of God was not afraid to express his concerns to the Living God.  Fed up by the prosperity of the wicked, David turned his attention to God’s miracles of the past.  Thus, within Psalm 86:17, he pleads with God to receive a sign of goodness.

The better you know someone, the more risks you begin to take, asking deeper and more personal questions.  Whether it was his years in the wilderness as a shepherd or a close relationship with a spiritual mentor not mentioned in the Bible, David knew the true nature of God.  His prayers within the book of Psalms are powerful outlines, a wealth of knowledge for anyone looking to find answers in life.

Therefore, don’t accept mediocrity in your spiritual life.  Though you won’t be able to fully discern the mind of God as Job tried to do, signs of goodness are awaiting.  The apostle Paul speaks of these things in a passage to the church in Ephesus, Ephesians 2:10.  Instead of turning into Oscar the Grouch, release your burdens upward, pouring your heart and soul in prayer to the giver of life, James 1:17.

by Jay Mankus