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Inside This Hurricane

In August of 1991, Hurricane Bob slammed the East Coast for 3 days bringing more than a foot of rainfall to several seaboard cities.  Inland at the time of landfall, I was hiking along the Appalachian Trail with a close friend and mentor.  While the mountains served as some protection, Ken and I were side swiped, cutting our trip short by a day.  Upon returning to Delaware, we became like storm chasers following the aftermath.  When we approached the city of Wilmington, low lying areas were indistinguishable, unaware of where the Christiana Marsh began or ended, filled with floating vehicles and trains.

Like the James Taylor classic, “I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain,” nothing could prepare me for the devastation I witnessed.  Bridges swept away, pavement sunk into creeks and debris scattered in and along every waterway.  Though I had endured an earthquake and waterspout earlier in my life, I had a front row seat, inside the ropes of this hurricane.  While the 2013 Hurricane Season begins June 1st and ends November 30th, spiritual hurricanes can form at a moment’s notice.

In the early stages of storms, people are often uprooted from their comfort zones, blown into awkward situations.  With a rising storm surge and no end in sight, panic can set in.  When the eye passes overhead, false hope causes people to let their guards down.  As this facade fades into the heart of the storm, the bottom right quadrant unloads its fiery on innocent bystanders.  This final punch can knock someone out, surprised by power of a mere trial.

When my own hurricane subsides, I will be much wiser, able to see the signs of approaching storms in the future.  Yet, for now I am holding on for dear life, waiting for the winds of change to die down.  Like Job in the Old Testament, I am at a loss for words, experiencing a battle of the will.  As soon as I see a rainbow, there will rejoicing.  However, inside this hurricane, I have been blown to my knees, looking up and clinging to God’s promise in Psalm 4:1.

by Jay Mankus

The Continuum of Sin

In the film, Behind the Devil’s Door, still in its infant stage, I am attempting to unravel the allure and subtleness of sin.  James, the brother of Jesus uses first century fishing terminology to address the power of sin, James 1:13-15.  Like a fish in hiding, a specific bait get’s their attention, similar to a momentary lapse in judgment.  It only takes a minuscule compromise to get hooked, setting in motion the continuum of sin.

The human mind is like fertile soil, ready to prosper with the right balance of the Son and living water, John 4:13-14.  Unfortunately, this ground is surrounded by fields of weeds, influenced by the flesh, world and spiritual realm.  Winds of temptation blow seeds of self, pleasure and rebellion, seeking to take root in your thought life.  Once implanted, this foreign root system can over ride your will, leading you toward a series of choices near the road called sin.

When detours are taken and U-Turns back toward God aren’t executed, your choices form a cycle of sin, also known as bad habits.  If these habits continue, without holding them in check, unusual behavior results due to a loss in control, forming addictions.  Empowered by a lack of self-discipline, addictions grow into an internal bondage, becoming enslaved to a specific sin or sins, Romans 7:15.

Every month, another minister is exposed by the continuum of sin.  Even if one is not discovered or found out, this pattern continues without public confession or purging sinful elements which produces your desire to sin.  The longer one strays from the narrow road of eternity, Matthew 7:13-14, the more difficult it becomes to escape this bondage and the demonic forces feeding your flesh.  Evil super naturalism then creates a spiritual stronghold, making it impossible to break free on your own.

The James 5:16 principle is the first of many steps toward a path to recovery.  A weekly accountability partner is essential, intervention is highly recommended and divine help through people praying for you can unravel this stronghold.  As for the time, it varies depending upon your degree of sin.  The apostle Paul gives believers further insight in 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 to help you in your battle with the continuum of sin.  Never give up hope as you wrestle to take back control of your heart, soul and mind!

by Jay Mankus

Inside the Cave of Despair

Sometimes in life, you feel as if you are watching a rerun of a bad movie, except I am living this one and there’s isn’t a remote to change the channel.  Somewhere along the way, on the road named Technology, I made a wrong turn, wandering aimlessly for hours.  Now, I have run out of gas, left stranded near the cave of despair, waiting for a good Samaritan to come to my aide.

In 1 Samuel 22:1, David is fleeing for his life, escaping to a cave to hide out until the threat subsides.  The mood inside is somber, filled with anguish, misery and pain.  This dark hole is my current residence, located on Misfortune Circle.  The meandering caverns quickly elude sunlight, preventing others from seeing the affliction deep inside my soul.

While David had 400 people who came to comfort him, my heart has hidden the pain of unemployment from others.  Like a disease slowly working its way through your blood stream, joblessness has sucked any joy out of me.  Isaiah 40:28-31 has an entirely different meaning for me today.  Like the movie above, I am that tired and weary individual.  As I continue to stumble and fall inside the cave of despair, I am waiting on the Lord for hope and strength to lift me out.  Now, would be convenient!

by an Eagle waiting on new wings

The Mystery of Fear

As a child, nightmares blanketed my thoughts as I tried to outrun Bigfoot throughout my neighborhood, escape the Boogie Man who was underneath my bed or reenact a scene from a Creature Double Feature that I had watched earlier in the day.  While awake, I became afraid of heights after visiting the Empire State Building and snakes during a few close calls where snakes slithered between my legs while cutting the grass in my backyard.  Adolescence brought with it a fear of rejection, especially by girls that added to my already fragile psyche.  Never did I once challenge fear; instead I ran away like a little girl, awestruck by this mystery.

Catholic hymns like Be Not Afraid conveyed a little hope to my soul, exposing this unnatural emotion.  In addition, hearing priests read from Proverbs and Psalms from the Bible produced a sense of peace to ease any remaining anxieties of fear.  Yet, in high school I wasn’t mature enough to ask intelligent theological questions.  On the other hand, the busyness of college prevented me from contemplating the unsolved mystery of fear.  The timing was not right for me to tackle this subject, put on hold for another time down the road toward Elm Street.

Like a scene from Back to the Future, God revealed the answer I was searching for as I opened up Proverbs 1.  According to Solomon, unlocking wisdom in life starts with a reverent fear of God.  The spirit of fear on earth uses apprehension, panic and trepidation to form a constant state of worry.  Biblical fear is the key for attaining the cardinal virtues of prudence, temperance, justice and fortitude, Proverbs 1:1-7.  These qualities are available to anyone according to C.S. Lewis in Mere Christianity.  However, this is only half the mystery.

The missing link and final piece of the puzzle is found in 1 John 4:18.  According to John, the disciple whom Jesus loved as a son, proclaims “perfect love drives out fear.”  The only obstacle to obtaining perfect love is sin.  C.S. Lewis states in his chapter entitled Theological Virtues, access is limited to just Christians.  This love comes from the power of the Holy Spirit mentioned in 2 Peter 1:3-4.  Therefore, if anyone seeks charity, hope and faith, you must come to Jesus, 1 Timothy 2:5.  The apostle Paul’s words in Philippians 4:4-7 gives a glimpse of what one can expect when the Holy Spirit helps you conquer the mystery of fear.  “Be Not Afraid!”

by Jay Mankus

Sense of Urgency

When I played professional golf in 1995, I met people who lived in their cars and ate peanut butter and jelly every day until they reached their dream.  In 1999, I was introduced to a few people who worked 7 days a week, foregoing vacations to achieve their financial goal.  As of today, exactly one month unemployed, a sense of urgency to find a new job is seizing my soul.

 

Ephesians 5:15-16 says “Be very careful, then, how you live, not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.”  My present plan is to find a position which I can do for the next 10 years.  However, each day out of work makes my financial situation dire, like America’s debt crisis.  On the other hand, I need to make the most of every second of every day, taking advantage of conversations, past relationships and untapped skills to attract a company.

 

My patience is wearing thin, my wisdom seems empty and my hope is fading until I can go to sleep knowing I will be working again.  As for now, I have to suck it up, press on and persist like the Persistent Widow in Luke 18 pleading with God until a new position is found.  As I wander through a forest of despair, I see the sun rising on a new day of opportunities with a sense of urgency spurring me on until hope is restored!

 

by Jay Mankus

Picking Up The Pieces

Bad news is like hearing a freight train off in the distance, often there a subtle signs that your world is about to be knocked off its foundation.  Phone calls that awake you from a peaceful night’s sleep, face to face conversations which suddenly turn in an awkward direction or simply a gut feeling which strikes your soul with a heavy burden.  When your house is built upon the sand, Luke 6:46-49, all you can do is pick up the pieces of your life and begin to start over.

When trials bombard your life, James 1:2, denial and isolation often serve as a buffer to protect your broken heart.  Over time, anger follows as reality and pain re-emerges from deep inside your soul.  Once anger fades from the scene, the “If I only” thoughts enter your mind as you try to relive the past, hoping for a different outcome.  As bargaining with God ceases, sadness and depression consume your every moment, like a spell you are unable to break.  Finally, there is only one thing left, to accept the reality, bad things happen to good people.

As I struggle to make sense of my own unemployment and financial woes this morning, I was reminded of Lamentation 3.  The first 19 verses are filled with crushing events, heartbreak, pain and sadness.  However, verse 20 serves as a transition between bad news and hope.  Verses 21-26 are a sign that as the proverbial dust settles, the Lord is ever present.  The next time you feel like your life is falling apart or the walls around you are about to cave in, remember God’s promise in Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and heals those who are crushed in spirit.”  On your own, its impossible to pick up all the pieces of your life, yet with God all things are possible, Matthew 19:26.

by Jay Mankus