While driving to this year’s New Year’s Eve party alone after work, my mind searched for an ideal atmosphere in 2014. Ultimately, I am longing for a healthy balance between family and fellowship with friends. Unfortunately, previous good intentions and new year resolution’s quickly faded early on, resulting in loneliness like a fellow without a ship.
Although I love spending time with others, my occupation, a spirit of perfectionism and a lack of energy has sucked a special ingredient from my soul. Subsequently, I have drifted farther away from the people I need to make me whole again on the inside. Like the Titanic, sinking into the sea, many of my close acquaintances have gone in multiple directions following the demise of Red Lion Christian Academy and Evangelical Free Church. Fighting for spiritual life boats, in need of their own aid and healing, currents of blame, misunderstandings and theology have led me to run aground, stranded without a ship to call home.
In view of this state, I am praying for real change in 2014, not just words but the discipline to make this a reality, 2 Timothy 1:7. As a result, my priorities must be reshuffled, adjusted to meet this goal. Like anything that is good, this won’t happen overnight, requiring patience and perseverance. However, by grace through faith, Ephesians 2:8, may God turn this fellow without a ship into a creature of habit starving for fellowship.
by Jay Mankus
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