Tag Archives: dealing with pain

When You Will See How Great is God

Life is like riding a new roller coaster for the first time, filled with ups and downs, twists and turns with unexpected corkscrews around blind corners.  Subsequently, individuals change, evolve or are transformed by the ebb and flow of trials.  Nonetheless, unless a caterpillar enters the chrysalis, it will never be able to fly.

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When hard times arrive. (and they will find you) there is a tendency to cry out to God, complain and wrestle with reality, Psalm 77:1-4.  Whether its coping with death, illness or unemployment, there is no easy way out.  However, on the day of when storms arise, Asaph provides a blueprint in Psalm 77:5-13 to help struggling souls see how great God is.

The moment you begin to remember recent miracles, times when God carried you or meditate on the works of the Lord, perspectives change.  Yet, this is easier said than done.  In the midst of pain, find rest in God’s chrysalis until your transformation is complete.  After the hurricanes of life, keep your head up so that you will begin to see how great is our God.

by Jay Mankus

The Fraility of the Human Heart

Since Thursday afternoon at 5pm, my life has been a whirlwind of emotions.  After a successful second interview at Amazon on Wednesday, I sensed a promotion in the near future, trying to stayed reserved until I hear the news.   A little more than 24 hours later, my focus switched toward a battle to live, unable to stand or breath on my own.   One second I felt like I was having a heart attack, the next a CAT Scan revealed a pocket of blood around my lungs and liver.

For the past 3 days, I have had a tube sucking the blood out of these 2 areas trying to prevent infection.  Until this improves, I am in limbo, getting stronger, but still waiting on my internal bleeding to stop.  Unfortunately, my body is not healing as quick as it use to in the days of my youth.  Thus, life has been put on hold temporarily, in God’s hand and in His time as I wrestle with the Fraility of the human heart.

God has taught me a subtle lesson these past few days, He’s in control no matter what I try to do.   Though I usually try to speculate about the future, I am helpless, trusting in God’s grace to get me through this ordeal.  Sooner or later, my odds of improvement increase, yet the Lord knows the next steps that I will take.  As for now, time is the enemy, placing me behind where I want to be as the reality of life’s fraility has come crashing through the front door of my heart.

by Jay Mankus

911

There are moments in life when God reminds you, “you’re not as young as you use to be!”  On Monday, an Evil Knievel like accident tubing brought me to my knees, lying in pain and waiting for an ambulance to take me to the hospital.  In a flash, the ability to walk vanished  as I was placed a stretcher with a neck brace, helpless as this reality set in.

More embarrassed than anything, I had 5 hours to contemplate how this injury might impact my life.  Paralyzed by fear, I began to quote verses from the Bible as each came to my mind.  Although still in pain, a sense of peace calmed my nerves, causing a spirit of optimism to enter my soul.  While seconds slowly ticked away, I began to feel my back every couple of minutes to determine a diagnosis.

By the 4 hour mark of waiting in a hallway, the doctor in me narrowed my injury to my ribs, kidney and or spleen.  Anxiously hoping for an x-ray, I was set free from my back and neck brace as the drugs kicked in, erasing most of the pain.  However, I was still a hurdle away from being released and given a clean bill of health.  Despite falling 3 feet, crashing into a table and shattering it to pieces, I came home late Monday night with a welt on my right side.  Within this 911 emergency, only the power of God can take credit for a miraculous recovery from this stupid incident.

by Jay Mankus

Do You See What I See?

Horse trainers have discovered that using racing blinders helps a thoroughbred stay focused on the task at hand, winning a race.  Instead of directing their attention toward opponents, spectators at the track and various other distractions that exist on race day, these horses have been taught to look straight ahead by their jockeys, keeping their eyes on the finish line.  Unfortunately, a growing number of people have bought into this mindset.  Subsequently, many individuals are acting like thoroughbreds, neglecting the world around around them, blind to the dejection, fear and hurt within the souls of mankind.

Recently, I have become an expert at putting on blinders, seeing what I want to see and moving on, refusing to accept the painful reality of this life.  My self-seeking nature has led to a “what’s in it for me” attitude, like Ray Kinsella at the end of Field of Dreams, forgetting the purpose of his existence.  While I am suppose to be a light for the world, Matthew 5:13-14, I resemble a flashlight, flicking light on or off when I want.  Thus, opportunities to encourage, lend a helping hand or share your time with a person in need are lost.

In Genesis 40:6-7, Joseph, son of Israel, sets an example for the world to follow.  Unlike the average individual, oblivious to people around them, Joseph notices 2 dejected men.  Although he could have ignored their body language and facial expressions, Joseph takes advantage of their depressed state, taking a risk by asking 2 prisoners a question.  Rather than run away from confrontation, Joseph becomes a vessel for healing, at least for the cup bearer.  In response to Joseph’s actions, one must ponder, “do you see what he saw?”  Or are you too busy to slow down like the first 2 characters mentioned in the parable of the good Samaritan, Luke 10:25-37, due to a full schedule?  Open your eyes and ears on this Labor Day or else the words of John 8:47 will be proven true, sealing your eternal fate.

by Jay Mankus

The Prayer of An Afflicted Man

Psalm 102 credits the author of this chapter to an afflicted man.  The term afflict means to badly affect, cause problems or make miserable.  In life, several variables can influence individuals to become bothered, distressed or troubled.  Depending upon the degree to which circumstances and or events inflict pain, people often rely on prayer as a last resort.

Thus, the words of Psalm 102:1-9 relate to one’s emotions, desperately crying out to God for Him to make sense of your situation.  Like the powerful scene in Forrest Gump, sometimes there aren’t enough rocks to throw, unleashing the bitterness deep inside of Jenny’s heart toward her father.  Unfortunately, most of us are persuaded by the devil to blame God for failures in life.  According to Ephesians 4:27, similar decisions allow the devil to have a foothold, making matters worse instead of better.

Since affliction is a common occurrence, Psalm 102 is a great outline to use for prayer.  Verse 17 promises that God will respond to the prayer of the destitute, answering their plea.  Therefore, the next time you experience signs of affliction, remember the words of this Psalm.  Whether you are a man or a woman, pour out your heart to God so that your pain will be replaced by the peace of Christ!

by Jay Mankus

Inside the Cave of Despair

Sometimes in life, you feel as if you are watching a rerun of a bad movie, except I am living this one and there’s isn’t a remote to change the channel.  Somewhere along the way, on the road named Technology, I made a wrong turn, wandering aimlessly for hours.  Now, I have run out of gas, left stranded near the cave of despair, waiting for a good Samaritan to come to my aide.

In 1 Samuel 22:1, David is fleeing for his life, escaping to a cave to hide out until the threat subsides.  The mood inside is somber, filled with anguish, misery and pain.  This dark hole is my current residence, located on Misfortune Circle.  The meandering caverns quickly elude sunlight, preventing others from seeing the affliction deep inside my soul.

While David had 400 people who came to comfort him, my heart has hidden the pain of unemployment from others.  Like a disease slowly working its way through your blood stream, joblessness has sucked any joy out of me.  Isaiah 40:28-31 has an entirely different meaning for me today.  Like the movie above, I am that tired and weary individual.  As I continue to stumble and fall inside the cave of despair, I am waiting on the Lord for hope and strength to lift me out.  Now, would be convenient!

by an Eagle waiting on new wings