As a child, there was nothing like the anticipation of opening presents under a Christmas tree. I must confess that sometimes I snuck down stairs in the middle of the night just to see what was in my stocking. On a couple of occasions I dozed off under our tree, before going back up to my bed so I wouldn’t be seen. Unfortunately, somewhere between adolescence and adulthood, I lost my fervor for life.
Apollos had been instructed in the way of the Lord, and he spoke with great fervor and taught about Jesus accurately, though he knew only the baptism of John, Acts 18:25.
One of the more interesting characters of the Bible is a man named Apollos who first met Paul during a trip to Ephesus. Although this man from Alexandria was an outsider, his passion for God made up for his limited knowledge. To a certain extent, I see a lot of Apollos in me during my early years in youth ministry. I didn’t possess the theological background that most youth pastors acquire, yet my determination and fervor was strong. Yet, when I left the ministry for good 5 years ago, my fire has dimmed.
Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, Colossians 3:23.
Previous mentors would suggest that I haven’t re-fueled, not spending enough time in Bible study, prayer or worship. Other friends might lean to a lack of commitment, fellowship and service to a local church. While this advice may be true, the most logical reason for losing my fervor is a lack of joy. When you’re a perfectionist, its hard to enjoy the little things in life. Thus, as I continue to search for answers, I cling to a life verse from high school. Whatever I do in the future, I must devote my heart to serving the Lord. If you find yourself in a similar state this year, may the Lord show you the way to rekindle your fervor for life.
by Jay Mankus
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