There are some mornings when my alarm goes off that I feel like staying in bed. Whatever plans I made in my mind the night before are cast aside as I hit snooze numerous times. When my life is void of dreams, goals or vision, feelings dictate what I actually do. At the end of the week as this cycle resets, I often discover little accomplishments on my to do list. Thus, how I feel is currently winning this endless tug of war against what God wants me to do.
For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out, Romans 7:18.
During a trip to Rome, the apostle Paul appears to have developed some bad habits. The text above doesn’t specify the issue except for implying Paul wasn’t able to follow through with God’s plan while visiting Rome. Earthly desires were either distracting or preventing Paul from making the progress he hoped and prayed for. You don’t have to be a missionary or pastor to experience these feelings. In fact, the average Christian understands failure more than success.
For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing, Romans 7:19.
When other people that you know live according to another set of rules, it’s hard not to lower your own standards through subtle compromises. Unfortunately, by doing so you allow feelings to trump faith. The earthly brother of Jesus once wrote “faith without deeds is dead.” Thus, every time I slip, giving into the sinful nature, my faith drifts closer to death’s door. To avoid the inevitable, I need a spiritual heart transplant, injected with new life by the Holy Spirit so that how I feel will yield to what God wants me to do.
by Jay Mankus