When you hear someone mention the term race, it’s often in reference to Track & Field, Horses or Nascar. Yet, my use is in the context of a personal battle. Currently, I have fluid in my left eye along with a recent collapsed cell wall. The sad thing is that this is my good eye. Following emergency glaucoma surgery in December, a cataract has developed in my right eye to blur my vision. Subsequently, I’m in a race against time to finish the book that I started this Spring. Meanwhile, I still have a collection of screen plays I need to edit and an additional script in my head. God willing I am hoping to complete these projects while I can still see.
And this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him, 1 John 5:14-15.
Seeing and believing are two different aspects of faith. According to the verse above, prayers should be based upon God’s will. However, if what you are asking is foreseeable in the context of God’s will, you should be confident in having this request honored. The only problem with my current dilemma is I’m not sure if it’s in God’s will for me to write full time. As for now, I am trying to maximize my time away from work so that I can make the most of the gift of sight.
And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith,” Matthew 21:22.
This second verse on prayer refers to overcoming mountains, persisting despite obstacles blocking your current path. Since last winter, I wake up daily not knowing if my vision will be blurred or clear. I have the faith for the Lord to heal and restore my sight, but a medical miracle has not arrived. The only thing I can do is press on like the persistent widow. This woman of faith did not stop praying until she received the outcome she desired. Perhaps, perfect vision is illogical to hope for in prayer. Yet, I cling to the promises in the Bible waiting for a miracle to occur in connection with God’s will. This is my race against time.
by Jay Mankus