If you have ever been disappointed by a promise that was broken or unfulfilled, you know what it means to become jaded. Maintaining faith or trust in someone or something becomes difficult, not knowing when or if you will be let down again. This is where I currently find myself, some where between healing and humility.
The Lord sustains him on his sickbed; in his illness you restore him to full health, Psalm 41:3.
A part of me still holds out hope that the condition of my eyes will be restored. Passages in the Bible like the one above provides assurance of my desire for complete healing. Yet, the apostle Paul did not have his thorn in his flesh cured. Instead, this ailment humbled Paul as he was forced to make the best of things without complete healing.
For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted, Luke 14:11.
Jesus provides a different perspective on life. God humbles the proud and lifts up the humble. Thus, as I continue with my battle to see, the Lord knows my pain. However, in my anguish God does not honor those who complain or pout. Therefore, as I endure this trial praying for healing, I have to accept the fact that humility may be the final outcome.
by Jay Mankus