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Weeping and Gnashing of Teeth

The phrase weeping and gnashing of teeth only occurs one time in the Bible.  Jesus is quoted by Matthew in chapter 8, verse 12.  In this context, Jesus is talking about being thrown outside of the kingdom of God.  In Luke’s gospel, he uses a similar expression to describe the suffering people will encounter in hell, Luke 13:28.  The imagery of weeping and gnashing of teeth can be understood by picturing an infant.

When babies cry, their facial expressions immediately change.  Some infants turn red, others shake violently and a few cry so hard they stop breathing, turning a shade of blue.  When our oldest child was upset, he would cry and scream so loud our neighbors could hear him.  Once a week, he would cry so hard that his face began to turn blue, unable to breathe and cry at the same time.  As he slowed down, his teeth began to gnash together in between crying spurts.  This is the visual I believe Matthew was trying to communicate in this passage.

Most people don’t get a second lease on life.  Once they die, its permanent, your eternal destination is secured in one place or the other.  After each person is judged, the finality of hell must be so overwhelming that adults revert back to their early stages of life, weeping and gnashing their teeth like an infant.  Regardless of where we have been and what we have done, the only things that matters is whether or not your name in written in the book of life.  Before its too late, choose life today, 1 John 5:13 by following Jesus, Matthew 16:24-26.

by Jay Mankus

Going Backwards to Go Forward

As I continue to press on each day, waiting on the next stage of my life to begin, a thought came to me, maybe you will have to go backwards to go forward.  Every day I complement where I am, where I have been and what I need to do to get back on track.  Until I was 23, I didn’t have a clue to my place in life in accordance with God’s will.  After living in 6 states in 6 months, working part-time in 3 different states, the Lord brought me to His promised land, Columbus, Indiana.

From May of 1993 to October 2000, I felt a sense of purpose in my life.  Although I wasn’t working at my dream job, I was content to work full time and go to seminary part time, taking one class per semester.  However, in an instant, my life was changed forever.  I was diagnosed with iritis, arthritis of the eye.  My pain was so severe I went to the emergency room, feeling as if I had a nail in my eye.  After searching for months to find the right eye doctor, I was able to treat my eye, but had to drop out of graduate school.

From October 2000 – January 2002, I was lost, confused about the direction my life was heading in.  In my anguish and desperation, the Lord was faithful, opening the door for me to be a Bible Teacher and Golf Coach.  Once again, God brought me to a promised land in Bear, Delaware.  As I look back on my life before I go forward, I am reminded of something I learned from Tentmaker’s Youth Ministry School in Hopkins, Minnesota.  If you can do someone once, you can do it again.  If you can do it again, you can make it a habit.  Applying this to God, if the Lord can lead me out of darkness twice, then He will do it again, bringing my life to completion, Philippians 1:6.

by Jay Mankus

 

Jury Duty

For the second time in 3 years, I was summoned by the state of Delaware to serve as a member of the jury.  I have been summoned 5 times, excused from my first 3 tours of duty, but I have been unable to get out of my last 2 days of service.  In Matthew 5:25, Jesus says to settle matters quickly.  Fortunately, the 40 cases that were to appear in petite court today all settled before going before a jury.  Therefore, my day consisted of writing the first 20 scenes of my next movie, watching Let’s Make a Deal with Wayne Brady and The Price is Right.

This morning I read a passage from Proverbs 24:26 which applies to trials.  “An honest answer is like a kiss on the lips.”  Exactly why Solomon uses this analogy is unknown, yet with 700 wives and 300 concubines, Solomon understood the gratification of the truth.  When honesty is heard within a selfish and wicked world, love is displayed by that individual.  Telling the truth is a sign of intimacy between 2 people or within the context of a family.

Finally, while most people despise jury duty, it is part of our civic duty as citizens of this country.  During my first time serving as a juror member, I was excused from the 12 member panel by the defense since I was a high school Bible teacher.  After being called to be in another jury pool, the case ran out of jury members before I was called so there was a mistrial until a new jury pool was selected.  Although the 2 cases I heard were somewhat gruesome in detail, I did enjoy my encounter and I look forward to serving one day again in the near future.  According to Proverbs 24:23-25, God blesses honest and upright jury members.

by Jay Mankus

Confidence in Prayer

Prayer is something people do, yet do they truly believe God is listening and will answer?  I go through phases in my life where prayer energizes me, waiting in eager expectation for an answer to my plea.  However, I also go through dry periods where God seems to be millions of miles away, silent and I feel as if I am talking to myself rather than praying.  My degree of intimacy with God influences the confidence I have as I enter God’s presence in prayer.

When an infant is first born, they are unable to speak.  Although, God has built into infants body language, facial expressions and a mouth to scream or cry to get their parents attention.  When babies are hungry, they fuss until they are feed.  As a Christian, part of our prayer life depends upon what we hunger for.  If we hunger for something outside of God’s will, our confidence in seeing answers will decrease.  As our hearts turn back toward the Lord, our prayer life can be rejuvenated, increasing our confidence in God to answer our prayers.

David is considered a man after God’s own heart because like an infant, he knew how to get God’s attention.  Though he questioned God regularly, David never forgot God’s nature.  Sometimes God does not answer our prayers due to a specific thing we have or have not done, 1 John 1:8-10.  James, the half brother of Jesus, is revealed by the power of the Holy Spirit a prayer to regain your confidence in prayer.  James 5:13-20 is a prayer of faith based upon situations you are going through.  If you are struggling with your prayer life, make James’ prayer your prayer.  Confess your sins to God and claim James 5:16 so that you will receive the answers and healing this morning.

by Jay Mankus

The Way

Jesus uses the expression, the way in John 14:6, referring to the way to God the Father.  Luke adds to Jesus’ words in Acts 4:12 inferring that salvation is found in only one name, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.  The apostle Paul takes this one step further, in his letter to the teenage pastor, Timothy.  According to 1 Timothy 2:5, there is one mediator between God and man, Jesus Christ.

Prior to his conversion, Saul persecuted anyone who was known to follow the Way, Acts 9:2.  Steven was one of Saul’ victims, yet even in his death depicted in Acts 7:54-60, Stephen demonstrated the Way.  Stephen last words are nearly identical to Jesus’ last words on the cross, Luke 23:34.  After his conversion, Paul during his trial before Felix in Acts 24:14 confesses to be a follower of the Way.

Unfortunately, the Way has been cheapened, perverted and watered down.  Today, the Way is introduced as prosperity, the end of all suffering and a self help guide to life.  In reality, the simplicity of the Way, following in the footsteps of Jesus, has been over analyzed and under demonstrated by leaders.  What would Jesus do if he entered the Christian church today?  Jesus would likely remind people of his words in Matthew 18:1-9, if you want to follow the Way, humble yourself and have a faith like a child, who unswervingly trusts their father.  Show others the way by bearing spiritual fruit, John 15:8.

by Jay Mankus

Unfazed

To be unfazed means not to worry or be upset by something bad that happens.  As a baseball coach the past 2 seasons, I see players who get easily flustered, fazed by the littlest things.  Batters are shocked by an umpires big strike zone.  Pitchers are annoyed by a perfect pitch which is called a ball.  Infielders are stunned by an error as if they have never seen one before while outfielders each look at a pop fly that is falling right between them, hoping the other will catch it.

The Waiting’s song Unfazed is a reminder of James 1:2-4 and 1 Peter 1:6-7.  People who truly call on the name of the Lord and cling to His promises should be unfazed by the circumstances life throws at them.  As a Christian, to be unfazed means to expect trials, tribulations and trouble.  What makes someone unfazed by various situations is confidence in the Almighty God and faith in the power of the Holy Spirit, 2 Peter 1:3-4.

Over the last 4 months, I must admit that I have been fazed by disappointments, failures and losses.  My life isn’t perfect, but I had a decade of success.  I was established, improving as a teacher and learning as a parent.  In the end, God has allowed these 4 months to occur as they did to help me see that I was trusting in my strength, not in Jesus.  As a result, I need to rebuilt, restore and revive my faith in Christ.  As a good friend shared last night, “failure is feedback and feedback is the breakfast of champions.”  With Christ, all things are possible, Philippians 4:13.

by Jay Mankus

Keep a Level Head

When I was younger, I often acted like an emotional roller coaster.  When I was up, everyone wanted to be around me.  Whenever I was in a bad mood, I sucked the life out of any room I entered.  While attending a youth ministry trade school shortly after graduating from college, this imperfection was brought to my attention.  Although I don’t remember the context, I do recall my friends advice.  “You have to try to stay even keeled, by keeping a level head.”

Solomon addresses one of his son’s in Proverbs 4:23-27.  After warning him about the role your heart plays in life, Solomon adds 4 things people can do to remain level headed.

1) Watch your language, put perversity away and keep corrupt talk from your lips.

2) Focus on the task straight in front of you, don’t get distracted by other things.

3) Make level paths for your feet and only talk steps that are firm.

4) Keep your feet from evil by following God’s commands.

Since the beginning of this year, I have found myself returning to my emotional roller coaster days.  Excited about potential jobs, then being devastated when things fall through.  It’s one thing to read the Bible, seeing that God is in control.  However, to let go and trust Jesus with each decision, moment and task is scary.  There are places I don’t want to move to and occupations I would rather pass on.  Yet, I am in dire straits, clinging to the Lord for answers and praying that I keep a level head regardless of what happens.  Truth faith is displayed in times of desperation and trials.

by Jay Mankus

Read Between the Lines

As I continue to read a Psalm and Proverb per day, I have been reminded of the importance of  humility.  Psalms written by David are sprinkled with words that reflect praise from others to the Lord.  Solomon, likely taught by his father, periodically addresses the proud with illustrations which lift up the meek in Proverbs.  If you take the time to listen to your daily conversations, you can read between the line to decipher the humble from the proud.

Brian Dawkins, a former Philadelphia Eagle, announced his retirement from professional football last week.  During his press conference, Brian was asked about his accomplishments and potentially the hall of fame.  In response to reporters, Brian deferred to the Lord, thanking God for blessing him with a 16 year career.  In a world of “Look at me” superstars, Brain Dawkins is a breath of fresh air, a man who will be rewarded by God for his humility.

Tomorrow, as a new day begins, listen carefully.  Pay close attention to how people respond to success and failure.  Who will get the credit and the blame?  Read between the lines of God’s Word, chose humility and the Lord will raise you up.

by Jay Mankus

Forgiven, but Not Forgotten

Since I was introduced to Christian music by a girl from high school back in the mid 1980’s, I have been exposed to various artists.  While I am teased by close friends because of my unique collection of unknown musicians, I have been spiritual nourished by almost every cassette tapes and CD that God has allowed me to purchase.  One of my favorite artists of all time is Benny Hester, a famous yet fallen singer.

Back in the 1980’s, Benny Hester was well on his way to reaching Michael W. Smith like celebrity status.  With number one songs like When God Ran, Perfect,  and You Weren’t Meant to Live Your Life Alone Benny was the Stephen Curtis Chapman of the 1980’s.  Benny was able to write songs relevant to the times with a biblical message.  One of Benny’s few mistakes was getting divorced during an era when Christians weren’t allowed are suppose to do such a thing.

The consequence of Benny’s action was being excommunicated from nearly every Christian bookstore in the nation.  While only 3 out of 10 Christians ever enter a Christian bookstore, those who attempted to find one of Benny’s half dozen CD’s often went home empty handed.  Ten years later, Michael English followed in Benny’s footsteps, having an affair during a tour.  Although Michael came clean immediately, his wife divorced him, leading to several Christian retail chains to remove his albums from their stores.  If only these Christian companies could have been present in John 8:1-11, maybe then they would have dropped their stones, forgiven these 2 men and welcomed their music in their stores.  Although the fame of Benny Hester and Michael English vanished over night, God has forgiven them, but not forgotten their talents.

by Jay Mankus

Reviving the Soul

As I read  Psalm 19 this morning, I am amazed at David’s understanding of God’s Word.  Since David had access to the Torah in his day, the first 5 books of the Bible, it is clear hearing the high priest read God’s Word out loud was inspirational to him.  Psalm 19:7 expresses the truth that God’s Word revives the soul.

There are days in my life, sometimes even weeks where I hardly take the time to read God’s Word.  During these periods, I find myself empty, quiet and void of an energy or excitement for life.  However, when I slowly read the Bible, meditate on the principles within God’s Word and begin to apply these truth to my life, I am a completely different person.  I have a bounce in my step, a smile on my face and a boundless supply of joy.

Like a charger for our phones, mp3’s or computer, the best way to revive your soul is by getting into the Word of God.  Five hour energy drinks, coffee, tea or sugar only have temporary affects, plugging into the Bible has an eternal impact.  According to Jesus, the only way to find your life is to lose it, Matthew 16:25.  Therefore, don’t let the sun go down today before you allow the Bible to revive your soul!

by Jay Mankus