This morning I awoke to an awkward feeling’, like I am reliving 2001 all over again. Unlike Bill Murray in Groundhog Day, my life has become synonymous with the classic Yes song Roundabout written by Jon Anderson and Steven James Howe. Instead of going on vacation to a lake in the mountains, I have completed a 12 year cycle which has brought me back to where I was in 2001.
The eerie sensation known as deja vu has been attributed to the paranormal, neurological disorders and our own understanding of human recognition memory. From a psychological perspective, the brain fluctuates between 2 different types of recognition memory: recollection and familiarity. When our mind processes the here and now, it can trigger emotions from previous times in our past, identical or similar to what we are currently undergoing. Thereby, producing the phenomena deja vu.
I believe people are born to do certain occupations and professions in life before they die. Like Doc Graham in the movie Field of Dreams, if he decided to play professional baseball his entire life, he would have never impacted people like he did as a doctor. In the same way, God has made it painfully clear in 2012 that God has designed me to be a teacher. The events of 9/1/01 paved the way for me to become a Bible teacher for a decade. Now I am waiting to be rescued from a pile of debt, shattered dreams and a wounded heart.
Emergency workers, fighter fighters and police who laid down their lives on that fateful day, ran into the World Trade Center as others were fleeing the scene to save as many people as humanly possible. Likewise, as Jesus’ disciples tried to fight for his life in Matthew 26:51, Jesus surrendered, laying down his life as a ransom to pay for my sin, Matthew 20:28. Although I may not be where I feel called at this moment in time, God can, has and will lead me to where I need to be.
by Jay Mankus
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