The remnants of 2012 can only be described as life altering for me. While residents of the New Jersey and New York coast continue to pick up the pieces of their personal possessions, I am trying to recover from an employment hurricane which began with a phone call on January 1st and ended today, New Year’s Eve, losing my job with Amazon. This storm has eroded my credentials, weakened my resume and washed my vision for the future into the sea. Like a mangled piece of wood surviving an F-5 tornado, God has stripped away any remaining ego, bringing me to my knees.
Similar to a fool full of non-sense, I believed I could do anything I put my mind toward prior to 2012. As I tried to take things into my own hands, I failed miserably, coming up empty for position after position. Some where between coaching and teaching, I had overlooked the truth of James 1:17. Meanwhile, prayerful hopes of naming and claiming authority over my financial mess proved void of any immediate help. The image which summarizes how I really feel is found in Luke 15:16. Just as the prodigal son yearned for food, I longed for closure, yet neither came for each of us.
Thus, I’ve come to the bottom of the barrel at the end of 2012. Though it seemed to take an eternity, I am reaching out to my senses, Luke 15:17. Only the Lord, Jehovah-Jireh as Abraham described Him in Genesis 22:14, can provide what my family and I need. Although my spiritual cup is empty, living water is available, John 4:13-14. From here on out, my finances, future employment and all that I need to sustain life are all in God’s Hands! May this lesson be less painful for you than it has been for me.
by Jay Mankus
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