Lately, I have been feeling like Billy Crystal in the movie City Slickers. Although I am not having a mid life crisis like Billy’s character in the movie, I am experiencing a mid job crisis which is on its seventh month now. As I receive daily emails saying, thanks for your interest but we have gone in a different direction or a monthly rejection phone call, there are only 2 conclusions I have come to about my situation. Either God is trying to tell me not yet, the timing isn’t quite right or the position you didn’t get selected for is not for you.
While my current scenario may appear bleak, its nothing compared to the trials and tribulations Joseph went through prior to receiving his permanent job as second in command to Pharaoh. Joseph was falsely accused of a crime he didn’t commit, Genesis 39:16-18, sent to jail in Genesis 39:20 and forgotten by the cup bearer in Genesis 40:23. Despite all of these events, Joseph stayed positive, didn’t complain and was blessed by the Lord, Genesis 39:23. I guess Joseph and I have one thing in common, God told Joseph and is telling me now, not yet and not for you.
I wish I had the faith like Joseph, blindly waiting on the Lord for His timing, purpose and will. In my pursuit to find the next calling in my life, I have been served humble pie several times. When doors have opened, I have been getting ahead of God, thinking I am a shoe in for a position. However, as reality comes crashing down upon me, my finances and ego, I am beginning to understand the meaning of 1 Corinthians 2:6-16. I don’t understand what God is thinking, yet through the Holy Spirit 2 things are clear: not yet or not for you.
Though my mid job crisis continues, I have been on a 7 month long journey blazing a new trail. Writing, reading and reflecting upon which trail to take next. I am a man without a map, waiting on the Holy Spirit to guide, lead and prompt me. Faith is my compass and hope is my food to carry me into the future, Hebrews 11:6.
by Jay Mankus
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